Should I feel bad about things?

When something feels this good, w/o causing harm to others, why not just enjoy it?

Through talking to others over the years, I’ve learned that what I think of as my “conscience” is very different from the ordinary person’s conscience. While it is true that I do feel badly about certain things from time to [...]

My Morning Ritual

4:45 AM
The alarm goes off.
4:54 AM
The alarm goes off again.
5:00 AM
My alarm goes off — it is distinctively less pleasant than the one Rosina uses.
5:03 AM
Rosina’s alarm goes off yet again.
…
Skip forward more than a half-hour of repeated alarms going off.
5:33 AM
Absently, I hug Rosina gently as I attempt to wake thoroughly enough for morning [...]

Sans Sanguine Sanity

From my bound journal, dated Dec 31, 2004. 
Often, the heart of compassion reels at new knowledge not because it is unused to learning, but because the realities of life are so distraught with misfortune.
Only just previously, I was able to take my sister on an outing, eating at a vegetarian restaurant, touring a strip mall [...]

Notice There’s No P in Mnemosyne

But there’s truth in a-Lethe…    [groan]
Brr. It’s somewhat chilly tonight.
On my way to the cafeteria, I noticed a small, purple flower off by the wayside. It was alone, surrounded by green leaves, green vines, and green grass. I had to step more than a few steps off the sidewalk to be able to reach [...]

Reilly, Martial Arts, & Easy Pickings

Today, only a few moments ago, an opportunity presented itself to me that reminded me of my old friend, Kenneth Reilly.
Reilly was a friend I had in grammar school. As a child, he had done some low-level computer hacking; nothing similar to the movie Hackers or anything, but still enough to gain the attention of the Alabama [...]

Total Recall

Fully aware of the irony inherent in my picking up litter whilst sipping tea from a styrofoam cup, I searched intently for the thoughtlessly thrown nonbiodegradable detritus. Only moments earlier, Russ had come in to dinner, exclaiming a renewed distaste for TKEs (one of the campus frats), because as he was walking to the cafeteria, he noticed [...]

Concern for the Caring of Others

It is rather hard for me to express how I feel right now.
Today, at lunch, Russ made the rather innocuous comment that my family apparently did not care for me very much. His sentiment was immediately rebuked by Mary, who said: “Even if that’s true, it is horribly rude to say so aloud.” Then David [...]

Good luck, Robin!

I just wanted to wish my best friend and love of my life, the illustrious Robin Raven, the best of luck for her audition tomorrow!
::crosses fingers:: I’m sure you’re going to do really well tomorrow! Keep that chin up, and deliver the best monologue you’ve ever given!
I have faith in you, dear Robin… Now go [...]

My_Friend, Chapstick, & The Death Of Logic

I was contacted today by an old acquaintance that I haven’t spoken to in nearly a year. The IM conversation started as you might imagine it to start — with friendly banter and an update on one another’s status. But, after a slight lull in the conversaton, he mentioned his old girlfriend, Z-. Last I [...]

Magic: The Gathering

The following is taken from one of my previous journals, dated 10/10/2002.
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The first time I saw a Magic card was on June 22, 1996 in the early afternoon. I was at a summer school type program at a boarding school. There were two people there playing, and while it did catch my attention [...]