A Lack of Philosophical Interest

Since I live at a college that has two girls for every guy, it is rather impossible to avoid the opposite sex during any given day here. This is especially so in the particular classes I am taking; my Greek class, for example, has twenty students in it, but only two of them are male. [...]

Wasted Time

The following entry was written in the very early morning of January 8, 2003, while I was taking a break from moving into my new dormitory.
Well, here I am. How do I feel about this new change? At first, when I started college, I held on to my apartment, since it was the last remnant [...]

The Virtueless Girl

“The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing.” -Socrates 
A tear rolls down my cheek as I look at her. She, like so many others, is ignorant of the fact that I am watching her. But her ignorance does not stop there. She lacks so many qualities: intelligence, beauty, persistence… And yet she strikes [...]

True Meaning

Him: “I showed it to you because I thought you might like it. I like it. I … I watch it at least once each day.”
Me: “Yes, … yes, I can definitely see why, my friend. That… that was beautiful.”
Him: “Yes. Now you know how I felt when I first saw it.”
Me: “Yes. Yes, I [...]

Incoherence? Or truth?

Fear envelopes my very being. 
I am staying up all night, but to what end? The air conditioner runs non-stop here in the mac lab. 
I am mad because geocities refuses to accept either shtml or php extensions. But I should be grateful; after all, I am getting that webspace for free. 
No one else is alive. Everything [...]

::sigh::

I ate in an empty cafeteria, filled with the chatter and clatter of the inane. I enjoyed the taste of the tortilla, but hated the smell of the ceiling as I ate it. The ceiling was looking down at me, forcing me to ignore it. So I read. 
I read, yet my heart was not in [...]

Of Discussion, Depression, & Slithy Toves

We talked until around three o’clock this morning. 
It felt very strange talking to her… It felt almost as though I were in a quasi-realistic state reminiscent of The Matrix. It felt really, but only partly so. It felt forced, but only just barely. And although the conversation was not what I would call ideal, it was [...]

A Short Diary Entry

I didn’t go to the counseling session that I made an appointment for today. I cancelled it about an hour and a half before hand. Maybe I’ll make an appointment later. Maybe I won’t. I’m just very confused right now… I’m trying to stay quasi-happy, but I’m not doing a very good job. 
::sigh:: 
This is a [...]

I hate myself.

I hate myself. 
I hate myself for working towards a goal I can never achieve. It is so obvious that I have no chance in hell, and yet I still work towards that goal unrelentlessly. I must be retarded or something. But even knowing this does not stop me. I still work for a future vision [...]

The Curse Of Epistemology

You have to stop somewhere, don’t you? I mean, I totally agree with the whole “success is a journey, not a destination” idea, but to wander aimlessly is not a route to success, is it?
{Enter epistemology.}
How many times must someone say “but why?” before it gets annoying? How far can one go when analyzing a [...]